so much lies baby!!! so much lies...

i miss waking up @ 5:30 in the morning were lizards are still sleeping....
i miss eating bowls of cereals while watching the morning cartoon shows....
i miss my mom...
i miss my charcoal babies....
i miss my uniform....
i miss simple things.....
i miss having troubles with some friends...

everything is so easy now...
but missing something is so hard....

badtrip...
walang pakeelamanan ng badtrip ha!

tetris is lurve

si Masaya ay si Kit

nag iinit ang bawat silakbo twing pagising sa umaga
parang brocolling sumisilip sa hugis ng mga bituin(twingkol-twingkol)
naglalakbay sa matalas na paningin ng himpapawid sa buwan ng mga pusang hilaw
na sa bawat gabing magkayakap sa ibabaw ng mala mamon na ulap ng goldilocks

ngunit ang oras ay tumitiktak tik tak at...

ikaw ang nagsisilbing kape na dumaragit sa aking atay
ikaw ang usok na nagswu-swoosh swoosh sa munting pagbuga
nga baga kong may poot at kapangyarihan
ikaw ang gulay na sa bawat nguya ay naglalaway ng sustansya
sustansyan di pede mabili sa MERCURY DRUG

ang mga islang nag ha-hop hop hop hop....

kung ikaw si QUIAPO
ako naman si CUBAO
at anak natin si DIVISORIA
na siyang nag uugat sa ating pag oONGPIN

sa kabilang banda...

matagal ko ng hinahanap kay PARENG WEBSTER si ALING MASAYA
pero di pala kilala ni PARENG WEBSTER si ALING MASAYA
maswerte pa rin, dahil nakasalubong ko si ALING MASAYA sa WELCOME ROTONDA
nung alas kwatro ng madaling araw
habang kumakanta si jett pangan ng THE DAWN

si ALING MASAYA taga DIVISORIA pala...

bumili ako sa kanya ng mga kakailanganin sa mahabang pagtawid sa pilik mata ng planet pluto...
bumili ako ng mga sumusunod:
YOSI, para sa pagmamaniubra sa depresyong OBRA MAESTRA
SERBESA, para sa pinong artes na kumikindat
MADALING ARAW, para sa oras na pagtitinapay sa tindahan ni MYLENE DIZON
BAGUIO, para sa masayang tagutaguan at ten-twenty
DILIMAN, para sa habulang pang marathon
PARKING LOT, para kay MARSHALL
KAMERA, para sa duplikadong enerhiya ng memorya.

pero..... pero... mabigat silang bibitin lahat!!!

di ko sila mabibit dahil im no SPOOKY SERNA eynimor!
pero dahil mahal na yata ako ni ALING MASAYA
binigyan niya ako ng KIT
na siyang magbibitbit sa lahat ng napamalengkehan ko
at dadalhin ko ang KIT sa dulo ng PERYA nina PINGU at PINGA
ng sa gayon madali na ang lahat para sa isang paglalakbay...

si PARENG WEBSTER humirit:
"si MASAYA pala ay si KIT."

IF i Impress you... Can i undress you?!

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Never hides the lust-behavior....

....it could be last forever....

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round 1....

ssshhhhh.......

round 2.......

aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.....

round 3....

sweet-lurve-juices <3

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INTERVISTA verde, cainta rizal!

The girl on the left side reminds me of Birute.

she's Giuletta Masina.

Federico Fellini, the man behind le dolce vita, la strada, ginger and fred and many more. a very nice and great director. my dada is a fan of his movies. He looks like the "meet the fockers kiberlu" hehehe.

the movie that im dying to watch. "Aling Quiapo meron ka po ba nito?"

ESCAPISM IS A GOOD WORD! CCXII_AYUMI I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!

ok, im no psychedelic-glitch-gurl. but i often accused of paranoia. my thoughts are faintly falling through the universe. kasabay ng pag alis ng planet PLUTO. like the descent of their last end.... upon all the living and the dead.

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ESCAPISM is a good word. i think it can be used in a way that suggests trivials or frivolous, or something that we shouldnt bother to concern ourselves with.

I try to transform myself, and now i dont, because ive come to terms with it. its mind over matter. we know we have to delve deep to do it. and were in the world with business turmoil of everythings changing, everything up in the air and coming back.

and if we were talking about what happened to me last night... its a no no or a very no no experince. I used to think that in times of depression, that was the time to be exuberant, but THERE'S so much SADNESS in the world, and you try to be UPLIFTING but eventually it GETS to you. Im not a JESTER, I cant do it ANYMORE!

im not going to play the PSCHYDELIC SPONGE and absorb all the misery and pump it out on my WORK. im no SPONGEBOB MEN!!!!!

on the other hand....

ccxii_ayumi: hello kilala niyo po ba si (insert artist/poet/etc. etc. name here)?!

maharlika_sinaya: bakit?! pwede malaman kung sino ka?

ccxii_ayumi: fan po ako ni asldgakftayfa.... kilala niyo po ba sya?!

maharlika_sinaya: kilala ko sya.

ccxii_ayumi: edi kilala nyo rin po yung bf nun?! balita ko po wala na sila ah, nakita ko lang po sila dati nung nihon sa UST.

ccxii_ayumi: ang alam ko po may bago na yun eh, mukang LOSER naman po. isang beses ko pa lang po nakita yun eh, pero di ko po natitigan, natatakot po kasi ako. sana si ksafgakfsfgfkq na lang magandang poet na magaling pa na artist.

maharlika_sinaya: hahahahahahah

ccxii_ayumi: sayang iniwan niyo po si akfgajkfgjkasgfkjag eh ang galing galing pa naman po nun, magaling na poet tsaka ang ganda pa. napaka opinionated pa po niya.

maharlika_sinaya: ilan taon ka na? pano mo ako na add? kilala mo ba kung sino ako?

maharlika_sinaya: mukang marami kang nalalaman ah, masaya kang kausap lam mo ba yun?

ccxii_ayumi: 17 pa lang. binigay po sa akin ng friend ko na COSPLAYER. sabi niya po kasi sa akin kilala niyo po si bjkasgfjasffua.

maharlika_sinaya: pasensya na ha. mag ooffline na ako in a bit

ccxii_ayumi: BUZZ

ccxii_ayumi: wala po ba kayo sa bahay? wala po kasi akong kausap. may friendster po ba kayo?! pa add naman po ako.

maharlika_sinaya: wala eh, may nag hack. ano yang nasa YM mo? quote yan no? kanino galing?

ccxii_ayumi: kay idol po galing yan eh.... heheheh

ccxii_ayumi: naniniwala po ako sa opinon nyang yan. ang galing niya po talaga.

maharlika_sinaya: kilala mo ba si luna? baka sa kanya mo kasi nakuha yung ym address ko.

ccxii_ayumi: ahhh si luna po... kilala ko po sya. pero di po sa kanya galing.

maharlika_sinaya: kung sino man ang nagbigay sa kanya sabihin mo thank you at nagkaroon ako ng bagong kausap dito. mukang ang kulit kulit mo kasi.....

maharlika_sinaya: hihihihi

maharlika_sinaya: alis na ako. bukas na lang ulit kung maabutan mo pa akong online ulit ng ganitong oras.

ccxii_ayumi: pakilala niyo naman po ako kay kagtdfastdfastfia.... sa LJ ko lang po kasi siya nakikita tsaka friendster.

maharlika_sinaya: heheheh
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i think that i have to make myself i bit calmer and stronger in other areas in life.... grabe, showbiz nga naman! KABIT SA MAGDAMAG by seiko films... ayus!!!!! taena, pwedeng title sa pelikula! if i tried that to play the game with this CCXII_AYUMI, id bloody well put her TEETH INSIDE HER THROAT! mahirap patulan ang mga taong di mo alam o di mo kilala. mahirap talagng pumatol lalu na kung wala kang kalaban laban. mahirap.... sobrang dayahe na mahirap! nagmuka akong TAENG LUKOT KAGABI! im just trying to be nice! and please gurl! i didnt do it for nothing.

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imagine if kreame kreame had access to a refillable prescription of coke and mary jane?!..... just imagine it beyyyyybeeeeehhh!!!!!!

the anger with myself isnt there anymore... but its the stupid BUSINESS that im wandering around, i wish im not into it!

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PATIENCe...... masaya makipag usap sa kanya.... SANA MAULIT ULIT! para malaman ko na wala nga talaga akong kwenta!

i forgot to post this on my last entry... sorry.

miss birute mar, a director, filmaker and actress from lithuania. and teh stupid-slash-fangirl me.

birute mar

yik yik yik. im so glad she replied.

My dear,
thank You so much for Your email, for beautiful photo... It's nice to
remember again the days in Manila... I am happy that my ANTIGONE
inspired You, and if You still have a wish to be on stage, let's try -
let's go to some drama courses or drama school, to learn about it...
It's very very hard profesion, but I love it most!
Best wishes from Lihuania, good luck and let's hope to meet one day
again...
Birute

awwwwwww......

I made this one bad afternoon. I spent my whole time waiting for my drug test result. Its the boredom who pushed me to do this. im not really into comics, but i do like comicstrips and the one whose behind it.and im still nostalgic and longing for more Funny Komiks. i lost my other Pooto doodles that made my ass crazy all over the night. i just went out from a family gathering were i brought my bag with full of artworx(kuno), because this *idunwannamentiontheneymofthisfutografer* wanna see it. and my other uncle who feed his family by his worx wanna see it also.we didnt ended up with our plans, because they find watching movies at the mall quiet boring, tama nga naman sabado kasi,maraming tao at hassle magbyahe. so nagkaroon lang kami ng konting art discussion sa Moonwalk were my other cousins are playing Chopstix and some Beethoven-ish(kuno) and Ghost OST at the piano. at ngayon ko lang nalaman na lahat sila naging artist muna bago nagkaroon ng degree. naging bigtym sa pagiging artist nang hindi nakapag aaral?! Pwede, pero pano yun?! pero ayaw ko gayahin yun. mahirap na. and weird pa dun, susuportahan daw nila ako, syet ngayon ko lang nadinig yun.

on the other hand, WHERE ARE MY OTHER POOTO DOODLES ANYWAY?! sayang! nabasa lang ng ulan ang lahat. im really looking forward to post all of those, but the abducted and wet it all. nalunok na ng imburnal sa may moonwalk. DI KO PA NAPOPOST YUNG IBA DUN MGA PUTANG INA!!!!!! paksyet. kasama yung "in the name of gawd" and "im still curious about their existence" doodles! hhuhuhuhuhu... (it really made me cry.) kaya pala yung iba ayaw magpakalayo sa sining. ngayon alam ko na kung bakit!

KunyaRi ArTist AkO.... Yiheeeeee!!!!

blessvi. the little tourguide.

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blakhok. may mga batang HUBo na naliligo dyan nung nagshoot ako at may lumulutang na submarine. So if you guys wanna visit my PAete, my humble province just tell me kasi ayus yun at masaya. at perstaym ko magPHOTOSHOP pare! ano yan putusyap?!
hark hark... no way man!!!!! pag nagstart na ako maging adik dito wala na... masisira na ulo ko! (pero sira naman talaga ang ulo ko, sabi ng iba!)


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In Teh NEym Of GaWd!

The girl from the netshop bragging me to gave the original copy of my kabudel dudel doo. She was laughing her lungs out when she see this. I made this, full view please.

dont get me wrong with this one, ok?!

Modern Technology, internet, robots or anything with brummagem software are the New Gods of Depravity, the Formless Art of Progression or another Lazy Form of Biomorphic. It’s like a pubic hair that stocked inside your butt hole, and pretending to be progressive in a way that its root constipated vitamins and minerals. The new Vitamins and minerals which serves a new drug for the rotten nerves and diseases of society. Which also helps to kill time and to manage fucked up modern depravity.

But i can’t help it, being swallowed by the modern age is not that easy to comprehend. I should oblige myself to walk the progressive path in order for me to draw a straight line, its the power of force, its a peer, its like a vinegar on your teeth. But am still curious about their existence. And contemplating whether if its good or bad or another disease that leads to Ideational Apraxia. I already tasted it for the fact i want to try it. So i learned that there’s no wisdom beyond it, but a release of frustrated knowledge.

Technology doesn’t have any concern with us; it concerns the penny inside your pocket. It really doesn’t help our productivity. Immersing ourselves to it is like living inside a rusted cubbyhole, which we didn’t know were slowly digested by the Alchemy of Quiet Slavery. It’s a Modern Art of Slavery.

makati is not aplace to be anymore!!!!

so instead of heating myself on the head i rather go laugh at this one.... it kinda scary but its nice to look at.... anyway... sorry for my stupid syntax.

so.... i failed my last examination in makati. im so exhausted with yuppies.... really.... inspite of having so much trouble on finding a job, it reaallly scares the bones inside my feet... im starting to loathe makati men!!!!! paker!!!! its a burden. i dont want to take it seriously but it always ended up that way. ok let me quote this to you: "life is a tragedy to those who feel and comedy to those who think"... im neither a thinker nor even a feeler... im not both of it. but id rather to be a misanthrophy or narcissitic or whatever you may call a dumb person like me....